The feeling that I got when RVP hugged Sir Alex "oh man, that's must feel great" to be able to hug someone you respect and look up to, someone you can called as your father. Then it hits me, I'd have that kinda feeling as now I knew I would never step on the field again after that disastrous accident. I knew the game that I played in was nothing much as bigger as professional football game, but I would be glad if dad can come over when I played before. Mom did, but it was when I'm on track & field which I won 4 gold medal and almost won the best athlete but lose out to my bestfriend. Its feel great but to be honest at that time, I didn't say much to mom, how I appreciate the effort she made that day. But don't get me wrong, I didn't blame them for this, I played all across the country and its hard for them to come over. So this is not me blaming them, its just unfortunate that we can't shared that moment together.
And this is not gonna happened to you champ. I promise you that. I'm gonna be there every single time you're on the podium or when you lifted the trophy, even your first football match. I believe that at the age of 5-12 years old, the role of the father played a major part in shaping his son personality. Me and dad during that time didn't talk much but he still bought me gifts and stuff. But that's it. Now, even on my birthday, he would awkwardly asked my "Today is your birthday right?" and that's all. Hahahaha. I found it pretty funny at first but then, I believe it would be great if dad can opened up more with me. But nevertheless, I love him.
At this time, at the age of 22, its still early just to have think of this kind of things, where people usually enjoy themselves at this early adult stage, have fun, fooling around and make stupid decisions. But I'm gonna skip all that shit as I already wasted 1 year of my lifespan on bed, lying with my broken leg. The next time I'm no longer on my crutches, I hope I'm not the same person I am before. The on that I believe most of people would find its hard to approach and like me. I'm not a likeable person, I knew that, but my closest friend know me better and they tend to opened up with me as they see me as a good listener and adviser. Its just I'm a very preserved person but very loud once you get inside me. I hope the villain version of me ended at the time I lost my left step.
Hello champ. I don't know if you'll be able to read this later as for now, I'm not with anyone yet but I'm sure, sooner or later I'm gonna stick with one. I'm not that bad champ, don't you worry. I hope we will live well and shared all the little things in the world. I hope I can be a good role model for you. I hope you will look up to me and ask many annoying questions as possible except don't ask me "burung apa?".
I'm gonna call you champ for sure and you'll see me as your hero.
