doing nothing waking up because of mom
hugging tight the pillow with my left leg still numb
trying not to care and acting dumb...
arguing with dad while I'm chewing chicken
forgive me dad its my time my life which is taken
away from me from someone who's I barely even know
how I wish that night that I should listen to my coz and say no..
I'm too fast, I'm too tricky, no you'll never catch me
you ran out of idea so you decided to kick me
but I guess you never knew how that kick defines me
I'm trampled bro so now you must be happy..
my brother were asking who did this to me
I said forget it, trying to protect you but no you never visit me...
dang ding dong ! this sounds irritates me
Dr Siva were struggling while hammering me
6 long hours I'm half dead I'm frozen the nurses try to calmed me
I said "its okay miss, pain is nothing new to me.."
Haven't been out much for forever wow
haven't met all my buddies and ladies for a while now
I miss them and I'm trying hard to remember how they looks now
some saying hai some just lay low
I know I'll never be the same friend that you guys know...
chilling on my bed listen to new music and laughing out loud because of Kang Gary
missing somebody, cheering up for me, saying its okay b
life is difficult, struggling is a must, world is not easy..
all alone trying to fight back and put a smile on the mirror
wear my best clothes going to the store buy some snacks and liquor
just kidding tho, I don't drink but sometimes it does cross my mind
does it helped, get drunk and losing track of time
watching all those geezers on the road smiling all the time..
I get it babe, in the midst of the night, there's someone came across my mind
saying its okay now, I'll put back the smile on your face,
while you enjoy your snack, your coke on your comfy bed
its my mom, making jokes funnier than TED...
Asking myself, am I having the worst time of my life?
its pretty high up there and its the closest thing what I called end of my life..
so I'm going through all the social network sites
reading all the articles and everything on sights
the unfortunate little baby who have the same name with mine (ahmad adam Syukri)
struggling with brain damaged from the first moment he's come to life
the doctor said this is the mission impossible kind of thing
and he's gone now, don't forget to give him our blessings..
scrolling the the timeline time and time again
felt annoyed and jealous for something that I can't gain
Seeing adee so happy with his job and his lovey dovey girlfriend
good for for you bro, at least I don't drag you with me and failed as I am..
do an X-ray time and time again
this is so breathtaking than being in the UFC ring
while they throw punches, and I lowered my pants
they try to hurt the others but I'm already in pain..
look at myself time and time again
gain so much weigh and chubbier than lynn
look not so cute and young again
at least I don't have to worried, how to look good on the screen..
I interpret the feeling that I have inside
I've been holding too much and now I let it slide
and you all wonder what crap am I talking about
this is not a song or a rap that you all gonna like..
this is my jam my struggles my shit and my life..
I'm all messed up... messed up.....
